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12.28.2006

Tagged by Miss Chantell! (5 Things you didn't know about me)

1. I am a lacto-ovo vegetarian that eats chicken. This is just my preference. Yes, I prefer organic, soy and natural over hydrogenated, high-fructose and deep-fried. I don't like to hunt. I don't litter. And I smoke weed. ( jk!) Again, this is just my preference, I do adapt to my surroundings if need be! So, save the whales....but first let's get to all the dying, lost, hungry people that need Jesus!!
2. I have my own business. It is called Arbonne and it's possibly the greatest thing since the calculator. I will be a millionaire by 25. Please ask me how it's done!
3. I am 5th generation pk/ Pentecostal. So, basically camp meeting and General Conference are as much a holiday to me as Thanksgiving.
4. I once (with two faithful friends) climbed a 9 ft., spiked, iron fence and dodged 5 security cameras to swim in a subdivision swimming pool at night....... then the next morning, (in broad daylight, I might add) borrowed 2 huge construction cones from the main drag, pulled them 1/2 mile to the deck of our 3rd story apartment..... and stacked them on top of each other to get onto our deck. (We were locked out!) I dont know..... Sometimes I like crAzy. 5. I went to kindergarten at 4 and high school at 13 and college at 17. I'm sure my parents were never so happy to have their highly opinionated, ever-social child out of the house !!!

12.27.2006

have you ever?

Have you ever sat in your room and stared at the computer screen at 1 AM, wishing you had the willpower to just get off and go to bed?

Have you ever thought that you were destined to be single....you are "ONE OF THOSE" that God has called to that...?

Have you ever wanted to move on to an exceptional, ever-waiting "Plan B", but Plan A is lurking in your thoughts and heart?

Have you ever thought it would be nice to live in a flat, in the city, by yourself, totally career-minded....Never worrying of about "developing your ministry"?

Have you ever fleeced God by talking yourself out of calling, texting and IM'ing someone....and insisting that if it's God, then they will make the first move?

Have you ever wanted to be Ellie-Mae Clampett? You know, all beauty and NO brains? Wouldn't it be fun to not think deep ....and NOT know you weren't thinking deep?

Have you ever wanted to drive and not stop until you had to because of the ocean?

Have you ever secretly wondered if you would succeed in life? I know you act like you know where you are headed and you tell everyone that......but do you ever wonder?

Have you ever texted messaged during the sermon at church?

Have you ever lit a candle, turned on Andrea Bocelli and just layed across your bed to daydream in the evening?

Have you ever eaten at least 5,000 calories in one day?

Have you ever eaten 300 calories the day following to compensate for the extra on the previous day?

Have you ever really wished you could tell your ex that you loved them?

Have you ever not wanted to love them?

Have you ever been given a chance at someone and couldnt take it because it seemed too perfect?

Have you ever ran into the woods and cried your eyes out?


Just because these are very specific, does not mean I have done any of it!!!

(Smile and wink)

12.26.2006

i repeat

I remove every trace and yet you remain. Why does my heart hurt tonight?

Take a look at me now....against all odds.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Stxi4DuX-vU&NR
This song screams my story and pulls my heart out.

12.25.2006

The Fight for the Femininity

The age of the feminine woman is disintegrating. Muliebrity is almost dead. Women are growing increasingly worse at being women.
Put aside thoughts of intelligence and cliche "womanly duties". This has nothing to do with the height of scholarly thoughts crossing her mind. It has everything to do with how she uses her eyes to her advantage.
This has nothing to do with her ability to verbally communicate. It has everything to do with the scores of other ways she can communicate. It has nothing to do with her personality. It has everything to do with the way she smiles. It has nothing to do with beauty. It has everything to do with confidence.
I speak only of the feminine essence that a woman posseses. You know what I mean. When she walks and talks and smells and stares like a woman. That icy, sweet and incredibly drawing presence that is somewhat innate in us. Maybe it's confidence just spewing from her. Maybe it's the fact she doesn't think she is beautiful. Maybe it's just that innate sparkle. But it seems to me, all this is dying quickly.
So (if applicable), don't sell yourself short. Be confident and smile........ these are the quintessence of femininity.
Sometimes I wish I could say things to someone with no strings attached.... a 'just for the record' talk. Nothing spiteful or mean...but just because I loved them. Actually, I don't even know what I would say. Maybe some crying and a long hug. A whole lot of "what could have beens". Maybe it's good that can't happen. I would like to think I wouldn't go back. But, I always have....so what would be different this time?

12.24.2006

merry christmas.

I am having the best one yet.
Isn't God amazing? He makes life sweet. I'm so grateful for everything He is doing in my world! Just when everything seems ruined, He pulls thru yet again. I couldn't begin to formulate the life He is laying out in front of me!
I am blessed.
Have a wonderful Christmas!

12.23.2006

What if....

"What if what you had was great, but not as great as something greater?"
If the God of the universe can be humble, why can't I?

12.21.2006

Once in a Lifetime- Keith Urban

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kc7Hgtg2Me4 Hmmm. Perfect. "Don't fear, Sun is shining on a brand new day..."

12.14.2006

my right-now favorites

Boybands. Starbucks Caramel Apple Cider. Perfect fireplace fires. My american manicure. Arbonne Ginger Citrus scrub. A Christmas Carol Dinner Theatre. my Burberry scarf. The pine smell from our Christmas tree. Late night phone calls. The number on the scale. Black velvet. My Arbonne business. Holding Kylie. White Christmas, Holiday Inn and (the new) Miracle on 34th St. Seeing old friends because... it's Christmas.

stand up and scream

Do it. Just stand up and scream at the top of your lungs, "THIS is ludicrous!!".
I just did. Wow, I love expressing my feelings like that.

"best things in life" quote

The best things in life are unseen...that's why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry, pray & dream...

12.09.2006

Quotes I love on love

Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret."

"You gotta give a little, take a little, and let your poor heart break a little. That's the story of, that's the glory of love..." -Beaches

"Life is like a Tornado Watch..You can either hunker down in the basement or get up on the roof let the wind give you rock star hair, and yell, 'I knew you were coming that's why I didnt rake the leaves.'" -Farrah Trammell

"If you're a bird, I'm a bird" - The Notebook

"This is crazy...I know. It doesn't make any sense. That's why I trust it" - Titanic

"I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." -When Harry Met Sally

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly." -Sam Keen.

"I wouldn't want to marry anybody who was wicked, but I think I'd like it if he could be wicked and wouldn't." - Anne of Green Gables

Look what I've learned....I love this!

I’ve learned – that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned – that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned – that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned – that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned – that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something. I’ve learned – that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do. I’ve learned – that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I’ve learned – that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I’ve learned – that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned – that you can keep going long after you think you can’t. I’ve learned – that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I’ve learned – that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I’ve learned – that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. I’ve learned – that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned – that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I’ve learned – that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I’ve learned – that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up. I’ve learned – that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned – that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I’ve learned – that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. I’ve learned – that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated. I’ve learned – that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it. I’ve learned – that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological. I’ve learned – that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned – that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned – that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief. I’ve learned – that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I’ve learned – that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other and just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. I’ve learned – that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I’ve learned – that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. it could change your life forever. I’ve learned – that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I’ve learned – that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process. I’ve learned – that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you. I’ve learned – that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I’ve learned – that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. I’ve learned – that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned – that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe. I've learned....life is about learning.