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3.21.2007

3.20.2007

love @ first sight

One of my most favorite men, Dr. James Dobson, doesn't believe in love at first sight. I really can understand what he is saying. Love is so much deeper than a first-sighting feeling. Yet, I can't help but wonder, Is he correct? He is right-on in most every area.
But I sometimes think that you could meet a person and just know. And obviously, that could (maybe) be attributed to deep infatuation that grows into love...
I just don't know. But I really want to.

Whaddya' think?

3.15.2007

My Many Colored Days: Revisited

I sometimes wonder if I am perhaps the strangest person in the history of God's (almost) green earth. I vary so vastly in my daily thought processes, that sometimes I cannot believe I am really me. What is sad about it is I am kinda serious.....
Haha...don't leave yet. Hold on and let me explain.

I often go back and read my blogs and real journal, just to see what I was thinking at certain points in my life. I just read a bunch of past thoughts and it made me recognize my weirdness once again.

Within the period of a week:


I am patient.
I am impatient.
I am learning.
I hate to learn.
I like Norah Jones.
I like Elvis.
I am hugely fat.
I love my weight.
I am living on purpose.
I am a perfectly good waste of oxygen.
I want to be a nun.
I want a husband, God!
He is seriously crazy about me.
He must not even recognize my existence.
I am so articulate.
I am a floundering excuse of an business woman.
I am going to be a millionaire by 25.
Yeah right, who are you kidding?
I am so disciplined.
I am so undisciplined.
I am going to succeed.
I am pretty much a flop in all areas.

You see? It is not normal. It cannot be normal. Or maybe it is normal, but most people have sense enough to hide it all very well?
At any rate, my prodigious amount of Many Colored Days have me bumfumbled.

3.14.2007

5 things that made me happy today

1. I am learning to bite my tongue and swallow blood.
That's such a gross saying... But I love that I am finally learning it how to do it.

2. This recent "nanny" venture has enlightened me. I truly love children but, I will not have any until I have been married 5 years. Then, sure, bring it on.

3. It's warm!!! I can run OUTSIDE instead of on the treadmill. Sooo stinking exciting!

4. Advocare MNS is seriously incredible.

5. I practiced my piano scales today.

3.06.2007

I think I should be doing something productive.

...But instead I am wasting my time with this thing.

I am: All or nothing, becoming, wondering, creative, overly opinionated, trying, neat, learning.
I crave: resolve and progress.
I regret: Certain parts of one "thing".
I cry: when I am hurt or touched
I care: about my family; people
I feel alone: technically never. But still, let's be real.. it happens to the best of em'.
I listen: sadly, a lot less than I talk.
I hide: from drama
I know: I need more of God and less of me
I need to know: two things.
I wonder: how things will end up in my life
I give: but, I could give more.
I feel: I need to exercise right now.

Lasts...
Last kiss: from Cameron. He loooooves me.
Last good cry: Last night at prayer meeting
Last library book checked out: Millionaire Women Next Door
Last movie seen: An Affair to Remember
Last book read: Deuteronomy something
Last word uttered: Judah, seriously!
Last food consumed: Whole grain tortilla and egg whites.
Last phone call: Krista
Last TV show watched: We don't have TV at home, so I have no clue.
Last cd played: Singing Success with Brett Manning
Last soda drank: I can't remember..I don't usually drink it
Last amused: This morning. My dad sings obnoxiously loud to wake my brother at 7 AM. It usually brings him out of bed fighting mad and it makes me laugh.
Last time wanting to die: I never want to die?
Last time in love: good question, I have a weird story.
Last time hugged: yesterday
Last shirt worn: black cinched-seem shirt
Last time you showered: this morning

Current...
Current clothes: jean skirt and T with flats
Current mood: a little motivated and extremely thoughtful
Current music: The samples on a CD website; trying to decide on new projects to buy for church.
Current taste: in what? food? =) I seriously cannot believe I am telling anyone this, but I currently love olives with the garlic center. Am I weird or what?
Current hair style? It's down now
Current annoyance: my lack of business builders
Current smell: Coffee
Current thing I should be doing: Making phone calls.
Current refreshment: Water with cucumber!
Current worry: How I am going to get to RVP by September.