It feels weird when I try to plan out my future right now. It just doesn't equate. It's as if this part of my puzzle is MIA and apparantly I am not supposed to find it. For now.

Could it be that I am not supposed to know? Could it be that I should simply hold tightly to the strong hand of God and stop planning every detail? Could I possibly learn to trust during this time?

Trust is difficult. It's so hard for me. I am just not good at it.

But I really want to be.