Today was the 2nd best day of my life. Maybe sometime I will explain why.

mama says....

My mom, glowing with maternal wisdom, looked at me last night and said this:
You're hurt, but you're not stuck, babe!
A simple and powerful statement.
God knows I can put up with a little hurt to save me from a lot of hurt.

Because if you create a fake profile on EC.... and then proceed to look at my profile... then I will never know its you! Tricky, tricky!

Some want to live within the sound of church or chapel bell; I want to run a rescue shopwithin a yard of hell. -- C.T. Studd

Jerry Springer and I

I have no idea why they called me. It HAD to be a random choice thing. Surely to goodness.
I mean, If someone actually referred me, I would be horrified. No, beyond horrified. lol
The comment about actually having enough "juice" to be on the show was competely facetious. Besides our recent breakups, we have no relational issues which could even compete for a spot on The Jerry Springer Show. It made my day though. I'm still laughing.

I could have been famous.

So, the Jerry Springer Show called me today. I would venture to say even my relatively non-drama filled life is worth more than what they offered.
Needless to say, I declined. I must say I was tempted though. My sister and I have had some amazing recent happenings in our lives. We could make for a couple great back-to-back shows, no doubt.

the very last dance

You can dance every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile every smile for the man
Who held your hand 'neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So, darlin', save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing, but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So, darlin', save the last dance for me
Baby, don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never, never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance, go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home, you must tell him no'
Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing, but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin', save the last dance for me
So don't forget who's taking you home
Or in whose arms you're gonna be
So, darling, save the last dance for me
Oh, baby, won't you save the last dance for me
You make the promise that you save the last dance for me
Save the last dance
The very last dance
For me

A great quote!!

"A failure establishes only this, that our determination to succeed was not strong enough."

right now song

http://www.webratsmusic.com/video-12010-what-hurts-the-most.php

Insanity

The last two weeks have been nothing but crazy twists in my life.
I feel very very close to insanity at times like this. Insanely passionate. Insanely different. Insanely focused. Insanely hurt. Insanely trusting.
I tend to be a passionate person....but it's out of control right now. Maybe because I have had to redirect my attentions and focus my energy on a huge self diversion? I have no idea.
I do drastic things these days. It's like a weird urge to make everything different so I don't hurt as bad. Because if EVERYTHING changes, then you can't notice the one big change as much right??? I'ts just a theory.